A Baring Absence of Love

What is real is love real; I am in the baring absence of real and love but the feelings I have for you… penis feelings are definitely real. People tell me they love me and I say show me; show me love in a way that won’t make me want to kill myself.



Love is sacrifice but I’m not sure I am ready to sacrifice for you so I am not ready to love you but wanting you, that’s as easy as breathing. This room isn’t real because it’s not mine, neither is this computer, dare I say even my inspiration… the girl in the picture but the stone, the water, the sky; the people that own me don’t own them. They can’t tell me not to want, to desire, or even to truly love but how can I believe the love I wish to give to you is real?



Again sacrifice, bare everything you are to me and I will willing do the same but I can’t be alone in this, not anymore, for how many times have I revealed everything and what is focused on is the monster. I have seen too many angels on the outside only to reveal such hated of all things me on the inside; walk with me for I will not come to you. If you love me I should not hate myself I should love me and want to love you all the more because you see the real me.



Chrissy is real, hate is definitely real, hell everything that I know to be real hurts, maybe that’s why I want to know you as exposed as I am. They say it’s better to feel too much than too little but I’m sick of feeling hurt and I can’t go back to feeling nothing, I want to feel you, at least to know you’re real.



A Baring Absence of Love



To see it all

As I lie

Cry

And wonder why

You won’t fall



Across greenest grass

Money and power

Sunlit hours

Colorful flowers

Dirty without class

Muddy and ugly

Hug and snuggly

Will you still love me?

Or will you pass

Baring no love



Across rivers run

Tears and fears

Cheers and jeers

All the years

Waters and sun

Old and new

Will you be true?

Bare and nude

Or won’t be the one

Baring no love



Across blowing winds

Rumors and words

Other girls

This whole damn world

Above my sin

Will you fly so high?

And not lie

Never say goodbye

Or will you sin

Baring no love



It is not enough

To think so

Live with no

And be so low

While you bare no love



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