Sex, Boredom, Not getting enough attention?
If so, then what you're looking for is random fucks and not a relationship. Do the person you're with a favor and jump off a fucking bridge, so you can save them the trouble and heartache they're going to experience later on down the road.
I myself put up with this type of shit from "my first
To set the story here...
He was secretly banging my younger sister when he was trying to get with me. She was 15/16 at the time when he was like 22/23 and I didn't know about it until my sister decided to throw it in my face when we got into an argument. But, by then - I had already established feelings for him and didn't know what to do, since technically we weren't together when they were doing this. Knowing that he was willing to fuck an underage girl or my family, should have been a sign for me, but I was an idiot.
Oh, and no, that wasn't it.
I then got a message from some girl online that she had been fucking my boyfriend for like half a year. I didn't want to believe it, because I didn't know her and he hadn't really given me a reason to not trust him. That was until she started saying she had been at our house, met his parents and has been to his friends house and started describing them and their houses in details. All of that was too fucking real not to believe. So I confronted him, he immediately denied it and said he didn't know who she was. Well after a while, he knew I didn't believe him and he finally decided it was time to come clean. She then tells me that she's pregnant and once she had the baby boy, he was alive for 10 days, and he had some complications and died. He denied it being his as well, but that I will never know because there was no way to do a test. You would have thought by now, I would moved the fuck on and get rid of this piece of shit, but oh no. I then found out a friend of mine, who I hung out with tell me that she had sex with him numerous times, because she felt sorry that I was a virgin and he wasn't getting any. This is another reason why I don't like girls - they will stab you in the back every chance they get. (Mind you, I gave him my virginity 3 months into the relationship and he gave me an std from this slut).
Nope, I still wasn't done yet...
This was the deal breaker.
I then notice that he's acting strange, something was definitely going on because he was just acting completely suspicious and would say off the wall shit when I wouldn't even ask. Like one day, some of his work friends were going to come over for a party and he says one girl is going to come over that I haven't met yet and "I don't have to worry, because she's married." That immediately got me thinking that I had to worry about something, because I seriously said nothing that should have caused that response. Let's just say she didn't show up that night and I think she was scared about it. I noticed that he was starting to hang out late after work almost every night, til 2 or 3 am. He was chewing gum more to cover up his hot garbage breath. He was interested in dressing better, differently and asked me to help him with that. He was out to impress someone and it wasn't me. I started to check his phone and noticed that when he would leave the house, he would immediately call someone by the name of Randi. I thought it was a guy, but then realized it was this girl, the one whom was married because I found pictures of her tits on his phone from when they were out at a Dennys. He made sure to keep his phone by him at all times, but one day when he decided to shower, he left it in the bedroom and that's when I decided it was my only chance. And I fucking scored. I had knew it all along and this was the proof. I was pissed, pissed from all the lies he told me and the heartache he had caused me.
After I had confronted him this time, he decided it was time for him to end the relationship and start anew with this chick, because he wanted a wild girlfriend and I was wife material. WTF? I guess, he at least admitted he's not ready to settle down with someone, ever. Because he just wanted to have a fucking skank for a girlfriend and not a wife. I was broken. Even though now, looking back at it - it was the best fucking thing that could have ever happened to me, but I was still broken.
I went through hell with him and didn't think anyone would ever want me after it was officially over. I think that's why I kept him around as long as I did. My self-esteem was a pile of shit and he didn't care, as long as he was getting vagina from every cunt that existed.
It took me a year after we had officially stopped seeing each other to get over this shit and actually feel sane again. That's when I had met my current boyfriend - who is 100 times better, that made me realize that there are decent enough men out there that are willing to have me.
Not only has this eye opening experience made me stronger, but it also made me realize what I do and don't want in a man. I'm really fucking picky now. And knowing the signs of a cheater make me the most cautious person I know. My current boyfriend knows if he ever does that shit to me, I will chop his fucking dick off. Let's just say he has experienced the same shit, so I'm doubtful he would ever hurt me that way.
So, if you're having a gut feeling that something is going on in your relationship - you're probably right. The gut instinct is 99.9% correct most of the time. If your partner is doing stuff that they used to do in the beginning of your relationship, like: chewing gum, brushing their teeth more than normal, showering religiously and applying cologne/perfume, hanging out all night with "friends" til 2/3 am, getting texts up the ass and not letting you know who it is, and when you ask they do a fake yawn or act suspicious in any way.
If any of this shit is occurring in your relationship, get a hold of their phone or email and check the shit out, don't be afraid to see what's up. You may find something that you were never meant to see.
Don't forget that they will try to make you sound like a psycho, with the "I don't know what you're talking about" bullshit when you confront them about it. Or they'll give you the "I love you" and "I don't know why I do this" speech, after they officially known they've been busted. They know damn well why they do it, they're just trying to get you to stick around for their douchey fucking ass, because they want their cake and to eat it too.
Just know you're better than that AND you can definitely get BETTER.
Take it from me.
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